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Well...once again I have let this part of my life slip and once again I find myself needing the release into virtual space where it is odd that while I speak to no one in particular, I speak to possibly many. I know most are friends and family that know of this place where I pontificate about things dull and boring in my life.... and sometimes thing that matter to me.

As with many, when I refuse to recognize this as part of my well psyche.... which is a huge weird place for me.... , I avoid it.... thus has been the case....

I put on the face and wit that as is well with me and my world, when in fact I have been denying a few concerning issues.....

Good news.... the two big issues...ended up being non-issues and should have been dealt with long ago and maybe not have sent me into a downward spiral of worry and concern......

So.... one, a large.... 1 inch by 2 inch lump in my abdomen.... no pain.... sometimes a bit hard and sometimes when I lie on my back you can see it protruding like a finger poking out.... well it appears to be nothing.... a "lipoma"... a fatty mass that does nothing ..... so we will watch it.... watch it do what I do not know... it has grown, doubling in size since I first noticed it in February.... I guess if it gets so big we have to name it it might have to come out...but for now.... we watch it.....

The other.... grrrrrr.... my headaches.... I have a headache all the time.... it just recently dawned on me that I must say... its nothing I just have a headache at least ten times a week.... hmmmm...maybe that is not so normal.....seems that the treatment for headaches.... Advil in my case.... .... can in fact cause rebound headaches....weird.... so Monday I go on a medication for five days that is supposed to 1)...break the cycle and 2) get rid of my headaches.... I sure hope it works.....this may in fact be left over from my attack almost a year ago....when I had a REASON to have a headache.... and took Advil.... a lot of Advil..... and the annoyance has just become realized... ( did I mention I like to deny things are not perfect ).....so we will see... she warned me it will be a rough week.... great...as I have to switch to day shift this week for classes......

Which brings me to work.... and I could go on and on.... seriously I love my job.... but government regulations are going to drive me up a wall...and if there was one month without some mandatory this or that..or some major change in policy or practice..I would be thrilled...truly thrilled...... I know medicine is forever changing...but all things seem to be circular....

The conference went great.... 17 years .... sigh..... I need a change....mandatory Ed days begin this week.... I'm not ready.... anyone surprised??? and Asthma stuff is postponed till April.... ( YEAH)....

Good news....My brother and his wife... are coming for a Wine Country Thanksgiving.... yes..Oregon has an amazing wine country...best Pinot Noirs in the US and Argyle just ranked in the top 100 for one of its sparkling wines..... I am so excited.... :)...

well... I better get my lecture for Tuesday done !!!

ttfn...

Thanks