Daydreaming..... of a cold winter day and wandering the streets of NYC... the ultimate high.... I had such a fabulous time... maybe its time to make a return trip.

In the meantime, I have a major beef about health care .... I know I am part of the system, but man the system is broke. I am not talking about the $$... don't even get me started, but the morality.... when do 'we' get to decide who lives and who dies. People struggling for every breath, but modern medicine has exhausted all avenues .... nothing left to try in the bag of tricks from the physicians and others at hand, yet how do you walk up to someone, and say.... today is your day.... its over.... or its over for your child...or your mother......

Somehow, when it was my mother, it was, I am ashamed to say, almost easy. We had previously had so many talks about it, but what about when the patient is not ready. What about when the patient is a near teen age CP who has no more comprehension than pain and no pain...we think.... what about when it is a child born with the wrong twist in her heart and no more surgical or medical intervention can fix it....when and who has the right to say NO MORE.....

I miss her, today, every day.... and I know she is happy watching Brett win in the snow, sitting with Her man, and all the dogs.... but I know after last night ...more than ever...that she choose her path...and it was the right one..... but I will always miss her....

M