It is hard to believe but I have not been on a plane since last September.... I think that 7 month hiatus is the longest since probably the early 80's. For many reasons I have needed to keep my feet on the ground, not only figuratively, but literally as well.
Maybe, that is why there is a slight anxiety about traveling again. I let an opportunity slip by. One that I waited for and then decided I wasn't ready. A medical mission to East Africa. How exciting... I know... all the things I dream of, travel, helping, meeting new people, ....but panic set in and the deadline passed. ahhhh the procrastinator in me helped to save me from failing. That is my pattern.... rather than simply fail at something.... fail to finish instead, expectations become different. The fear was not in failing medically.... that is my fall back comfort zone... the failing was in the letting go of control. thus...the need to keep my feet on the ground.
But .... travel season is here and I am ready... excited actually.... opportunities laid at my feet will allow me to feed my soul. The trip to Florida.... family, warm sun, comfort.... then I may take up an offer for travel "home".... funny... Wisconsin hasn't been my home base for nearly three decades, and lord knows I have no desire to return there, yet, it will always be where I am from.
and more destinations offered as well.... YEAH.... and thank you.....warm welcomes from those who love me are always appreciated.... now I need to get my ass off the ground and go....
and let the fear fade away.... let the control I crave melt away.... let my life move forward.....its time !
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