Damn... I have a ton of paper.... paper that reflects every decision, every moment....
Birth certificates, marriage licenses, divorcee decrees, a man's life reduced to a chronological stack of papers.
I do not envy the person who has to deal with this paper when I go.... where we began this habit of saving everything I do not know. but now hanging onto a small piece of paper that brings back a happy memory or a kind word ... a special moment or a purchase made when we really could not afford it.... its all just paper but so much more.
Words.... my solace... others, my own, writing, reading, hearing, speaking.... connecting ..communicating.... I love you all for watching me from close and from a bit farther....
Planning... people laugh.... I am the ultimate planner.... OK Cheri MIGHT have me beat.... but not by much.... that is how i got through the last ten days.... everything was planned.... it just happened because i planned for this.... all of it... maybe not in the order in which the events occur ed but none the less it was planned.... even the new front garden.... it looks cute.... now i need to get some flowers in, but morning frost today makes me wary of planting spring things yet. another week or two...Planning continues.... and Paper.... urghhhhh actually I can't complain much....
For Today... I'm good.... Worried already about a Tuesday breakdown.... need to put some plans in place to avoid that.... it will be hard as I will be in 'recovery'...maybe I'll get through it in a drug induced haze.... although there is not supposed to be much pain.... my plan.... sleep right through April 7th....
Sunshine in Portland.... a Trip to Bear Creek and friends.... yard work...oh and paperwork :)
2 comments:
Marie, I do not know you, but I want you to know I feel your pain and believe that you will come through this life transition. You will not be the same, but none of us are the same from day to day. I picked up your blog from C.C.'s crossword blog. I am also in Portland as are a number of readers/posters at C.C.'s place. Hang in there. Time will make a difference.
May your days be filled with friendship, love, and joy!!
Hi Marie,
It's Melissa...from Winks...well, actually, formerly of Winks. You and Ted were one of my last customers the day I walked out. I've been following your blog for months and I hope you got my phone message last week.
Anyway, I took care of my grandmother's estate so if you need any help at all, let me know because it can be daunting to say the least. I loved seeing you and ChiliMac (yes, silly..but that's what I called him) on a Saturday or Sunday morning. Really...if you need anything, don't hesitate to ask.
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