Improving

A couple of things have fated their way into my life. Fate is a funny thing.... I don't truly believe 100% in fate, but I am not 100% convinced of Divine guidance either. I believe somewhere in between the two.... He guides our decisions so that fate looks like the random result. It works for me!
A lonely afternoon adding facebook friends.... I randomly added the father in law of my niece.
This is another funny thing in my life.... I tend to create intense relationships with extended family. My in laws families are just mere extensions of my own. My sister in laws parents, siblings, their children's in laws...etc... are more than ..oh I met them at the wedding to me. They are all integral part of my life at various points. All for various reasons, various bonds tie us.
JM's parents and I had no such tie.... distance, time, lack of connection.....until this week.
Father John reached out to me...through that random act of adding him as a friend and brought a unique peace to me.
Despite having lived in Portland for almost 30 years, I've yet to find a spiritual home. My search has not been very persistent i must admit, but I have a million excuses why it hasn't worked. I have my own odd spirituality. Organized religion has not been part of that for quite some time.
I know that people often return to "God" when tragedy hits. I don't feel I ever left God, in fact quite the opposite, I believe that God guides me daily. I never felt the draw to a church to complete that relationship.
Interestingly, I have never cursed or questioned why Ted was called by God. Maybe why he was called now, what is in the plan from here.... but I have comfort in knowing that it is part of "the Plan".
For now, for the moment.... I have again connected with the kids, the brothers.... mine, Ted's.... and with Fr. John..... and this week has been good.....

Thank you !!