Getting It Done

It is the beginning. A week ago I recommitted to 8 weeks of serious training. A schedule that will have me "tri ready" in the short 60 some days until I do this again. I have been able to do it. for 5 days... I truly hope this can happen. I do not do well with rules and schedules. But I have to BELIEVE in the process. I want the better result. The result that makes me better.

It has been a couple of rough weeks.... things are changing. I am doing OK, or I feel like I am doing OK.

The work in PICU has been good. I head back this weekend. I have been getting enough work. I would love to kill it and pick up a ton of overtime... but I know myself and I know working too much is not good for me.
Especially when I am trying to kill it in the Gym.
Like right now... 5 AM, too early to work out ( not really, the gym is open 24 hours) but I really want to do at least 1/2 of my bike ride on pavement.... get the real feel of the bike.

But I could be doing other things... Core, Legs, sigh,,,

I am under 1000 days to retirement. But this is the time to make the move. I will get my resume in order and get things together for an Early June blast. Not sure if that is a good strategy. The advantage is that many people are looking for new people .. the new grads... they hold positions for this time of year. So, do I hunt for one of those positions, dazzle with 28 years of experience and the desire to relocate. or do I wait for the fall out. wait until the August failures.

Thinking things through.... its what I do best and what I do worst. This is when the crazy Libra comes out in me.

these are the reasons to do this choice, these are the reasons not to do that and make the other choice... but what if I do the wrong thing, or the right combination but it turns out wrong. Brain challenge, Life challenge, moving beyond the physical thing I am currently doing.

and then the fear of Virgo... that staying the course is the right and safe thing.
Staying for the fall Yoga Instructors class. taking NPS. moving beyond the moment.

But there is so much to move toward.. Fred's Party. Cati's graduation... Life.... crazy wild life...

for now, time to take a moment.... work the core and ride the bike.... sigh....