First date....

Really??? I am 53 years old...OK technically only 52, but close enough. after chatting for a week on the phone and a brief meet for coffee on the way to work, dinner seemed the next logical step.

How do you do this? We are both more than adults... and pretty set in our ways. I guess that does make 'dating' easier, you can rule out things faster.

we are definitely in different places... that alone may simply make this an exercise in putting the dating game face on. Me...you all know the story, newly widowed, and while Ted had his flaws... should I name them? hahaha..we had a good marriage and I love him dearly. I miss HIM everyday. I even went to the 'rock' yesterday ( oh that is a whole different posting) ...for what? permission...LOL...like I ever needed his permission... I always said he only told me No twice in our marriage, one was when I recently wanted a new puppy ( good move on his part) and I don't remember the other time. Timothy...Once divorced, one long term relationship...ended five years ago... one daughter and soon to be a first time grandpa...he is looking for the woman to spend the rest of his life with... and starting over career wise..yes at 47...I think that takes balls... I was honest first time we talked... that is not where I am. However I did learn long ago not to rule anything out....ever.... who EVER thought in 1981 when I drove from Arizona to Oregon that I would still be here 28 years later.
He understands too that I am vulnerable...lonely already.... after dinner we came back here to sit on the deck...it was a gorgeous Portland evening...and later he left...It was late... we talked for hours.... that is the fun of getting to know someone new... but even I am amazed at how all my stories are wrapped around Ted.... he seems OK with that.... or at least for now seems OK with that.
But.... but what.... we remind each other regularly to take a deep breath...that we have only known each other for a week... he called already this morning.... we are going out again tonight.... odd that I have two nights with no plans...it just worked out that way...
he makes me smile, makes me laugh.,.. alot... he is a good man.... and handsome in that rugged bad boy cowboy/FBI agent way....

so...where this first date leads... who knows... I am just thankful for the course of event of the past week....at least now I smile everyday in addition to crying everyday....

Ciao